Your Age: 21-30
Length of Relationship : 1 - 2 years
How long ago did the betrayal occur?: A while ago - 6-12 months
How did you learn about it?: i needed to borrow gmail on his phone cause i was activating my new one. i discovered he subscribed to one of his college mates onlyfans. a girl he said he was just friends with. it broke me. that was only the first time.
Describe how you are feeling now, or how you felt when you found out.:this was december 2021. i feel completely numb now. things are better. it’s weird because sometimes i feel like i’ve found forgiveness and understanding. but other days i feel like it’s happening now.
How have your normal habits changed (eating, sleeping, etc)?: man yeah i’ve gained so much weight which doesn’t help either of us. when it first happen i could barely eat. i would wake up and cry and go to sleep and cry some more.
What are you using to cope with your emotions? Is it working for you?: i tried to get back. but it just didn’t work. i love him. other men just aren’t him. we’ve been working on communication. i don’t think he means me harm now. but i’m worried he will fall into old habits.
What are your next steps?: hope time heals all wounds. if it doesn’t then idk.
What emotions have come up for you as you've been going through this? (select all that apply): Anger, Sadness, Alone, Afraid, Devalued, Shame/Ashamed
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What advice would you give to others in this situation?: if you’re not too emotionally invested then leave. i’m 22 right now. i know i’m so young but i’m so worried i’m going to miss the one. i love him so much. but he did do it again. if i could go back over to the start of our story the first time he cheated i would leave.
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