submission fifty-one (51)

Your Age: 41-50

Length of Relationship : 11 - 20 years

How long ago did the betrayal occur?: It's been a while - over a year ago

How did you learn about it?: It's been the entire 20 years I was told it was my fault laird to told that doesn't mean anything....I hate failure I faught hard til a year ago and realized it's not me it's you. I finally moved out a month ago things are hard I feel I'm the one being punished. He got a promotion the kids want to stay with him because they feel he is more powerful.
But I have my peace and freedom there is so much more

Describe how you are feeling now, or how you felt when you found out.: Soul crushing

How have your normal habits changed (eating, sleeping, etc)?: Yes I take 7 pills a day

What are you using to cope with your emotions? Is it working for you?: Not really

What are your next steps?: I need a better job n car

What emotions have come up for you as you've been going through this? (select all that apply):Shock/Disbelif, Anger, Sadness, Alone, Afraid, Strong, Empowered, Voiceless, Betrayed, Devalued, Invisible, Shame/Ashamed, Cornered/Forced, Relieved

What emotions are missing from the list?: Wanted to die

What advice would you give to others in this situation?: Idk

What else would you like to share?: I need a human to hug me