submission thirty-five (35)

Your Age: 31-40

Length of Relationship : 1 - 2 years

How long ago did the betrayal occur?: A little while ago - 3-6 months

How did you learn about it?: 

His infidelity didn't involve another woman but it involved drugs and alcohol. So in a way the drugs were his other woman. And he always put the drugs first.

Describe how you are feeling now, or how you felt when you found out.: 

I felt sick to my stomach. Nothing I did was ever enough.

How have your normal habits changed (eating, sleeping, etc)?:

 At the time I couldn't eat or sleep, I was angry and hurt..

What are you using to cope with your emotions? Is it working for you?: 

I saw a psychologist. She was a good listener. And I had a couple of friends that were very supportive and also just listened.

What are your next steps?: 

I have closure now. I had tried to get him to own up to the hell he put me through but he didn't remember any of it. And I realized it was because of all the drugs and alcohol. He was never really there. It was never really a real relationship. I was always present and sober. He was always high.

What emotions have come up for you as you've been going through this? (select all that apply):

Shock/Disbelif, Anger, Sadness, Alone, Afraid, Strong, Empowered, Voiceless, Replaced, Betrayed, Devalued, Invisible, Shame/Ashamed, Relieved

What emotions are missing from the list?:

What advice would you give to others in this situation?: 

Walk away immeadiatly from people who use drugs and alcohol on a daily basis.

What else would you like to share?: