Your Age: 51 +
Length of Relationship : 21 years or more
How long ago did the betrayal occur?: Recently - less than 30 days
How did you learn about it?: Thanksgiving. My daughter checked my husband’s location and he was hundreds of miles away from where he was supposed to be. This discovery played out in front of my extended family because we were together for the holiday.
Describe how you are feeling now, or how you felt when you found out.: Shock. This is the second time (that know of). The first caused an extend case of Bell’s Palsy. Full recovery not achieved. Residual paralysis noticeable.
How have your normal habits changed (eating, sleeping, etc)?: Yes
What are you using to cope with your emotions? Is it working for you?: Therapy. Sleep. Apathy. Drinking. Thoughts of suicide.
What are your next steps?: I don’t know.
What emotions have come up for you as you've been going through this? (select all that apply):Shock/Disbelif, Anger, Sadness, Alone, Afraid, Voiceless, Replaced, Betrayed, Devalued, Invisible, Shame/Ashamed
What emotions are missing from the list?: Hopeless. Exhausted.
What advice would you give to others in this situation?: I don’t know anymore.
What else would you like to share?: It’s the wurst feeling in the world. It’s consuming.