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Your Age: 51 +

Length of Relationship : 21 years or more

How long ago did the betrayal occur?: It's been a while - over a year ago

How did you learn about it?: I borrowed his tablet, he was still logged in, read all the emails.

Describe how you are feeling now, or how you felt when you found out.: It was 18 months ago, and I am still devastated, it had been going on for 10 years.

How have your normal habits changed (eating, sleeping, etc)?: I lost weight, had sleeping issues.

What are you using to cope with your emotions? Is it working for you?: I just get so angry every time I think of them together. It's difficult not to think about it, I'm not coping very well.

What are your next steps?: We still live in the same house, I want him to move out for a bit, but he refuses.

What emotions have come up for you as you've been going through this? (select all that apply): Shock/Disbelif, Anger, Sadness, Alone, Afraid, Replaced, Betrayed, Devalued, Invisible, Shame/Ashamed

What emotions are missing from the list?: Ugly, worthless

What advice would you give to others in this situation?: I haven't figured out what I should do, so I'm not ready to give advice.

What else would you like to share?: 8 months before I discovered his affair, our beautiful youngest 23 year old son died suddenly, I was already a broken woman.