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Your Age: 21-30

Length of Relationship : 11 - 20 years

How long ago did the betrayal occur?: It's been a while - over a year ago

How did you learn about it?: I confronted him about it as I had a niggle that something had happened.

Describe how you are feeling now, or how you felt when you found out.: Now feeling numb during the day while trying to keep busy. At night, I feel suffocated and drowning.

How have your normal habits changed (eating, sleeping, etc)?: Eating less, not sleeping

What are you using to cope with your emotions? Is it working for you?: Usually run but currently injured so overwhelmed.

What are your next steps?: Figure out what I want moving forwards.

What emotions have come up for you as you've been going through this? (select all that apply):Shock/Disbelif, Anger, Sadness, Alone, Afraid, Voiceless, Betrayed, Devalued, Invisible, Shame/Ashamed

What emotions are missing from the list?:Suffocated

What advice would you give to others in this situation?: Reach out

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