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our Age: 51 +

Length of Relationship : 6 - 10 years

How long ago did the betrayal occur?: Recently - less than 30 days

How did you learn about it?: He confessed

Describe how you are feeling now, or how you felt when you found out.: Agony. Confused. Broken. Lost. Terrified. Devastated. Angry. Disappointed shock

How have your normal habits changed (eating, sleeping, etc)?: Nit eating or sleeping

What are you using to cope with your emotions? Is it working for you?: Talking to family and friends. Contacted councillors. Considering medication as not coping.

What are your next steps?: No idea. Its been a week and I just can't process what has happened

What emotions have come up for you as you've been going through this? (select all that apply): Shock/Disbelif, Anger, Sadness, Alone, Afraid, Voiceless, Replaced, Betrayed, Devalued, Invisible, Shame/Ashamed, Cornered/Forced

What emotions are missing from the list?: Broken despair devastation

What advice would you give to others in this situation?: I have nothing to offer right now as I am desperate to try and alleviate the pain I am feeling

What else would you like to share?: We have been together 9.5 years and I did not have any warning of this