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Title: When you have fought all battles and won and suddenly the

Your Story: I have been married for 14 years. During that time, we have had our ups and downs, like everyone else do, but overall we have been a good couple, a team. We have two sons that are our pride. We met very young, I was 27 and she was about to be 23. At first, we met like in the movies, we met through the internet, all the way back to 2005, and I traveled abroad just to be with her. Within 6 months we were engaged, and a year after that we got married. I guess from the beginning there were signs of things to come, an ex of her started looking for her when she was moving with me (with the help of a friend of hers). Then that same ex started texting her, and then the first affair happened. She fell on the trap, and I found out. I took it calmly and gave her my engagement ring, but she asked for a second chance. I loved her so much I gave it to her. A little more than a year after that we had our first child. Everything was going great or so I thought, and after our son had his first birthday she started working again in a new company, and then it was the second time... she started going out with a co-worker and I again, found out, and again gave her the chance to end it all, but she would not take it. We gave it another shot. 4 years after that, we had our second son. When I thought everything was behind us, the ghosts came haunting again. In February 2020, she fell asleep in our younger son's room and her phone started beeping, so I picked it up and what I saw was a picture of her ex. I wanted to confront her, but we were living in a different country, so I decided to wait a little, to calm down. In the meantime, COVID stroke, and she was depressed and concerned for her family, so I decided not to tell her, but I stopped seeking her intimately, that was my mistake. I let time pass, and a year after, I decided to talk... she was so mad I held that for so long without telling her, and she resented me for the lack of intimacy... but we gave it a shot. A month ago, suddenly, she decides she does not love me anymore and does not want to give it another chance... she tells me I am not the man she fell in love with... So, after all I fought for her, she suddenly decided I was the one to blame... Well, I was devastated, felt miserable, but… she left a notebook of hers behind, and when I read it… well, she is in conflict about her ex... I was right and she had been in fact talking to him... but she denies it and will deny it again...
So, I guess I have been a real idiot to fight for this, when it was clear she never really loved me like I did anyway... and still I love her and would take her back... 
That is my sad pathetic story, a story of a one-sided love, that for some reason still loves her.
Thank you.