submission fifty-four (54)

Your Age: 41-50

Length of Relationship : 21 years or more

How long ago did the betrayal occur?: It's been a while - over a year ago

How did you learn about it?: Behavioral changes. No reciprocating. Emotional neglect. Hiding phone. Half confession from pAP. Denial Denial Denial. 2 years later same shitty behavior but things are either on hiatus or further underground. The redflags continue.

Describe how you are feeling now, or how you felt when you found out.: Depressed, anxious, suicidal, alone, unheard, misunderstood, unwanted, unloved, used, betrayed and trapped.

How have your normal habits changed (eating, sleeping, etc)?: Emotional wreck.

What are you using to cope with your emotions? Is it working for you?: Meds. Aren't working.

What are your next steps?: I don't know

What emotions have come up for you as you've been going through this? (select all that apply):Shock/Disbelif, Anger, Sadness, Alone, Afraid, Voiceless, Replaced, Betrayed, Devalued, Invisible, Shame/Ashamed, Cornered/Forced

What emotions are missing from the list?:suicidal,

What advice would you give to others in this situation?: I don't know. Right now I can't

What else would you like to share?: Keep the hope alive.