Your Story: In 2014 my wife of 24 years had a sexual affair with a man I knew since kindergarten. My wife and I were virgins to each other. It's four years now and I still have the images of them together in my head. Most days I wish I were dead. I still wake up in the middle of the night crying. now that our three children are grown I don't feel I have any reason to live. The pain I have is as strong today as the day I found out about what they were doing. What I want back God himself can not give back.