submission ten (10)

Your Age: 41-50

Length of Relationship : 11 - 20 years

How long ago did the betrayal occur?: A while ago - 6-12 months

How did you learn about it?: 

My 5 year old son.

Describe how you are feeling now, or how you felt when you found out.: 

Stunned, shocked, heartbroken, broken.

How have your normal habits changed (eating, sleeping, etc)?: More drinking, excercise, ruminations.

What are you using to cope with your emotions? Is it working for you?: 

Excercise, therapy, social support, distraction, drinking.

What are your next steps?: 

Trying to let go of anger. Wishing he would die.

What emotions have come up for you as you've been going through this? (select all that apply):

Shock/Disbelif, Anger, Sadness, Alone, Voiceless, Replaced, Betrayed, Devalued, Invisible, Shame/Ashamed, Cornered/Forced

What emotions are missing from the list?: 

All the positive ones.

What advice would you give to others in this situation?: 

Everyone says time heals. I am not so sure that is sufficient.

What else would you like to share?: The power of the anger inside me astonishes and is unlike any emotion I have ever experienced.