submission five (5)

Your Age: 41-50

Length of Relationship : 6 - 10 years

How long ago did the betrayal occur?: In the last few months - less than 90 days (3 months)

How did you learn about it?: 

Accidental text sent to me.

Describe how you are feeling now, or how you felt when you found out.: 

Like I've been dying for the last 4 months.

How have your normal habits changed (eating, sleeping, etc)?: 

25 lbs weight loss, can't get up in mornings, can't work, can't focus, completely obsessing and thinking about her.

What are you using to cope with your emotions? Is it working for you?: 

Reading articles online, sleeping a lot, therapy....no it's not helping.

What are your next steps?: 

Anti-depressants. Started today.

What emotions have come up for you as you've been going through this? (select all that apply): 

Shock/Disbelif, Anger, Sadness, Alone, Afraid, Replaced, Betrayed, Devalued, Invisible, Shame/Ashamed, Cornered/Forced

What emotions are missing from the list?: 

Despair, feeling like I'm having a heart attack all the time.

What advice would you give to others in this situation?: 

I have no useful advice.

What else would you like to share?: 

I just want this pain to end.