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Your Age: 41-50

Length of Relationship : 11 - 20 years

How long ago did the betrayal occur?: It's been a while - over a year ago

How did you learn about it?: Checked her emails where she told a friend about one of the affairs.

Describe how you are feeling now, or how you felt when you found out.: I don't trust anyone. I don't feel loved, or like I was ever loved. I feel hollow, like I am just living till life ends.

How have your normal habits changed (eating, sleeping, etc)?: I go to sleep when I am totally exhausted.

What are you using to cope with your emotions? Is it working for you?: I don't share my feelings because I feel like I am gas-lighted when I do.

What are your next steps?: Nothing.

What emotions have come up for you as you've been going through this? (select all that apply): Shock/Disbelif, Anger, Sadness, Alone, Voiceless, Replaced, Betrayed, Devalued, Invisible

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What advice would you give to others in this situation?: Walk away, immediately. It's draining to deal with it.

What else would you like to share?: